I almost gave up.
When I was in high school, I was depressed. Not medically diagnosed, but I know I was. I’d wake up feeling gloomy, burdened, and hopeless. And before I sleep, I was never feeling better. It was normal back then that my day would be filled with fake smiles and false laughter. I was anxious, worrisome, and had low self-esteem. Frankly, I was insecure. I felt so down that it even came to a point where I self-harmed and contemplated suicide. I almost gave up.
I grew up in a Christian family, so I knew there is God and believed in Him at a young age. But growing up, I never devoted my life to Him. I did go to church a couple of times, attended some events, but my relationship with both the church and God was not cultivated. I never knew that this God I believed in was the same God who would save me from my misery.
One night, as I was sitting in my bed, I saw my Bible from my bookshelf. The funny thing was I haven’t read it, I didn’t even bother taking it out from its place. But seeing that Bible was the turning point of my miserable life. I was reminded that I have a God who can carry all my hurt and my burden. So I prayed. I cried out to Him and told Him everything. When I finished, I felt so light and comforted. I slept well that night, my first for a couple of weeks.
The next morning, when I woke up, it was as if nothing happened the night before. I still felt hopeless and depressed. But I knew there is something different in my heart. I continued praying every night, because though there was still suffering in the morning, it wasn’t as heavy as it was the night before.
God slowly took me out of the darkness, and led me to His light. His saving grace.
A year later, our school had a spiritual retreat. It was at that event that I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior.
YOU ARE NOT HOPELESS
I personally dedicate this article to people who are depressed, who feel they are hopeless, up to no good and better off alone.
You are not hopeless. Where you are right now is not where you’re going to be for the rest of your life. There is more to life than darkness and misery. I may not know about everything you’re going through, but I know how it feels to be in that darkness. And if you don’t give up, you will get to that light, just as I did.
THERE IS HOPE
Our help is in the name of the LORD, who made heaven and earth. – Psalm 124:8
For some, this might be surreal. But ALL hope lies on the name of JESUS.
It has been two years since I recovered from depression. And I have learned so much about hope and God.
If there is someone who is more hopeful than any of us, that would be God. For He is the sole manifestation of hope.
When sin entered the hearts of Adam and Eve, God knew that He will send Jesus to save His most precious creation. He knew that He has to give man hope, and Jesus Christ is the best manifestation of hope. That hope evident in His resurrection, for He has overcome death. We are all blinded by the wickedness of the world, but it isn’t hard to turn to Him and ask for hope.
When Jesus saw him and knew he had been ill for a long time, he asked him, “Would you like to get well?”- John 5:6
God knows your situation. Just like medications, you will never get better if the medicine does not enter your system. Same with God, you will never get better when you don’t have hope that He will turn your life around.
Let every step forward lead you to a better life.
Be faithful, be patient. Recovery is a journey. Allow God to work in your life in His own time, not yours. Be faithful in His name. If His power can overcome death, He can give you victory over your situations. Lastly, don’t give up on Him, because He never gave up on You.
WRITTEN BY: YEV MONARQUIA